For once I feel like I belong. Here. Not on some strange other-worldly planet no-one has heard of yet.
Now this may be hard for some of you to believe, but I am an outcast. I don't know, some people think I'm a little "annoying" or "weird" and even a little "emo" (BTW: I am N-O-T emo, well sorta, because emo means EMOTIONAL, not "you're emo if you cut yourself")
I don't even know WHY some people think I am emo, but back to my story.
I only have 2 really good friends, Calli and Sonja, and we call ourselves "The Outcasts" because Calli is the emo one, Sonja is the goth one, and I am the punk one. They used to be the only people who could make me happy when I was sad but now I have someone new, a boyfriend, and I know we will most likely not end up together in 10 or 20 years from now, but hey, it's nice to pretend. But anyway, he helps me when I feel down. And last night I was feeling pretty down. One of my best friends and I got into a fight, and I told him I hated him, which isn't true, he has been my friend for 2 years, but it seems like forever. He just doesn't know what to say sometimes.
He can be an a-s-s sometimes.
But last night Zach told me that Tyler would forgive me, hopefully. OK he didn't say that but that's what I heard... Sometimes I can be an a-s-s too.
Have you ever wondered why some people don't care about the emos punks and goths? Well it's because we apparently don't matter. The fact that we exist defies the laws of earth.
People. Hate. Me.
Do you enjoy living a life that's so hateful- "F*** You" Lilly Allen
No, I don't think I do.
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Well, sweet child of mine, we all act like an a-s-s sometimes. I'm glad you recognize that it's not just everyone else.
ReplyDeleteYou're not as hated as you think you are. The emo/punk/goth thing might put you in the fringes of society, but it doesn't make you hated. Just different.
Be yourself, always. But realize that not everyone is going to accept that. They don't have to.
Your mom is right, but honestly when you are a teen, it might be hard to believe that being different isn't the same as being hated. Believe in who you are, and those who don't like you, they don't know what they are missing, but it's all ok.
ReplyDeleteI love your 2 different definitions of EMO. Very true! And go ahead, be different, now's the time. When you're older it's much harder to be "different." Of course, you don't care as much then either!
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Macey
I know it's hard to be "different", but it's very important to be true to yourself. And hey, if you have 2 really good friends, you're doing OK. I think it was Winnie the Pooh who said all you really need is one good friend. You've got two! Not very many teens (or people in general) can say that!
ReplyDeleteWow, things get tough sometimes, don't they? Your friends sound like they're pretty awesome chicks, though, so at least you can all be yourselves around each other. And don't worry about what other people think (I know it's hard - I still do it too!) - just do what makes you happy.
ReplyDeleteOh, and punks are cool! Don't worry if not everybody thinks so. My old flatmate was a punk guy who had long hair that was dyed black, blue, pink and purple, and he used to listen to The Ramones at 1am so loudly that our neighbour would bang on the wall with a broom to make him shut up. They were fun times. Thought you'd enjoy that weird story. But you probably shouldn't try that at home!
xo
PS - Lily Allen is the BEST!
I came over from your mom's blog (who rocks, BTW) and just wanted say hi and to tell you that I am 37 years old and still feel the way you do sometimes. For real. But then there are days when I realize that if everyone was the same, the world sure would be a boring place.
ReplyDeleteP.S. I love that Lily Allen song, but I have to keep it under wraps seeing as I have 2 little girls. For now...headphones. Keep blogging!
Stopping by from your mom's blog.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to a lot of this. I sported the punk look in high school, complete with crew cut hair, army belt, custom high tops, etc. but the cool thing was that I also had a great group of friends who were all also a bit "different" People can be very judgmental - based on how you are dressed, but it is important that you express yourself however you want (within Mom's limits 'course)...
I used to be embarrassed to look back at my high school pics now that I am a conservative mom LOL but over time I've come to appreciate how I was able to step out from the crowd and show my creativity.
Hope you enjoy blogging!
carma :-)